Internalized Homophobia – a daily meditation

I am returning to some photos I took at the start of the month. Yesterday I was angsting out about slow sales to a close friend. He stated that maybe my work had become too “strong”. It coded but clear to me. We are always in this internal battle with ourselves. It’s an internalized homophobia … Leap ForwardInternalized Homophobia – a daily meditation

I am nothing if not an emotional exhibitionist

I am nothing if not an emotional exhibitionist.  What a dramatic title yes? Well that’s what it feels like being separated from my paintings the adorned my studio for the past year in Ventura, CA. I miss my babies. They are in the gallery there living and breathing without me. I would see them every … Leap ForwardI am nothing if not an emotional exhibitionist

Progress

Many hours of work to accomplish what before would seem so simple. Life right? First it was getting this site up and running. That goal had been sitting around for a few years and came to fruition about 6 weeks ago. In that time I have garnered over 1000 subscribers to site. How cool is … Leap ForwardProgress

Prepping

Wait, you didn’t just come here to see the black bar removed from the photo did you? Perve. But hey, no judgement. 🙂 I’m working through my ideas of how the model will need to move and what I will need from them in advance. It helps me to model it here first and think … Leap ForwardPrepping

The Frenzy

Much of the time the only way I can stay honest to my practice is to set goals (metas) for myself. Generally my goals are lofty overall and then drilled down to tasks like complete two paintings in a week to prepare for meeting a curator. I realized that the other gallery was going to … Leap ForwardThe Frenzy

Radio Silence

Don’t assume my silence isn’t because I am not working. On the contrary, I am in full speed mode. Not all activity is directly related to creating the actual work. Sometimes it’s all about business…which reminds me of 10 things I need to do this week still. I sent off 10 new images to get … Leap ForwardRadio Silence

Joan

  Thanks to my friend Mark and his excellent massage skills, I was able to pick back up on this piece again. My hand had gotten to the point where it was swelling and making it difficult to hold the pastel stick and other tools. It turned out to be somewhat of a benefit for … Leap ForwardJoan

Failure

Here’s the thing I never got in college from my teachers. Failure happens a lot in the creation of anything. We just don’t talk about it because we’re afraid that failing makes us failures. There is the judgement in our minds long before others are allowed to judge us. In art it’s out there, right? … Leap ForwardFailure