Despite or because of the season, I need to make a point of reflecting on false evidence appearing real. FEAR. I get emotional and forget that life is layered much like my artwork. It is a work in process and I’ve made a few mistakes. I’ve also made a few happy mistakes. 2018 is no … Leap ForwardEvidence Exists
I am not a religious person, but I grew up in a very Catholic family. My memories of church were more about allegories to live ones’ life by, punctuated by rituals, and a crush on one of the priests. I can’t divorce those experiences from the use of angels as a metaphor for my current … Leap ForwardAngeles en Mexico
It’s been almost two weeks since the day I walked into the clinic for my ritual HIV test. A ritual deep with meaning, history, and emotion. The first time I did this was in ’89 when you had to wait 21 days for the results. My doctor at that time said to me, “Oh you … Leap ForwardLemons AND Lemonade?
From the start of my process I have wanted to create images that were solely my own. Unique and representative of my view point of the world. I can remember taking all those photos in the streets of DF over 17 years. Each time returning to the scene I had shot to capture the aging … Leap ForwardNew Pathways
It’s no secret that this last year has been all about evolution for me. It was a year ago today that I stood “trial” defending my character against false accusations. We can find many examples of LGBTQ peoples’ rights being pushed to the side to protect the limp morals of another. It is the history … Leap ForwardAnother evolution in progress
It’s not been an easy transition into the new job. I am finding it hard to adjust to the schedule of going to bed around 8PM to be up around 4:30AM. A one to two hour commute in each direction via metro, micro, and taxi. I am engaged in the experience and enjoying the people … Leap ForwardCatching my breathe @chromaticexplorer
To be clear, I don’t know what the power of forgiveness will yield in this case. I know what it has opened for me in the past, so I am filled with hope and not really sure I have expectations. The thing is, I let 40 years of fear, anxiety, and anger go yesterday. It … Leap ForwardThe Power of Forgiveness
It’s interesting that I had 10 months to address my sleep issues. Blog it out or whatever it was going to take to discover what is at the root. Here I am back at it with a school schedule wake up time of 5AM and barely getting 5 hours a night despite my best efforts. … Leap ForwardFade into you
Muchos Más. Many More. Fitting reminder there will be many more pieces to come with the willingness to allow them. I am nervous. Tonight I will start at the new job with a feast and camaraderie. New peers disconnected from my art reality but apart of it even if they don’t know or experience it. … Leap ForwardMuchos Más
I woke up today itching to work in the studio, but with no idea what the next piece would be. I’d programmed myself to roll through the contact sheets of photos in my dreams the night before. I thought I was primed and ready to just pick something out and it did not work that … Leap ForwardDiving into a new piece
Sorry for the glare in the photo. Hard with wet oil and varnish layers to get a good foto. I am just thinking a stream of consciousness would help me process the progress. • I really like the idea of differentiating the front row of dancers from the back. I decided on yellow with the … Leap ForwardDancing into progress
Soon I will return to the daily work life with a new job. I am ok with this as having some structure definitely helps the process, but also having some income keeps things moving forward. Of late, I have been meandering through my process. Enjoying the last days of ‘summer’ before I return to the … Leap ForwardEnjoying the last days of summer
It’s the title so far because in the painting I intentionally left these words visible. Not sure just felt it had to be done. Can be corrected later if I change my mind. Right now I am sitting in the studio. The new piece is taped up to the bookshelves, so I can sit on … Leap ForwardControl Fest
July 9th, 2018 2:30PM The windows in my room face into a central well area, which I presumed was for light, but did not warn me when morning had come. Although I’d gone to bed around 1AM, I still woke up at 9AM on the dot. Good morning Cuba! I leapt from bed feeling mostly … Leap ForwardMore from Cuba
When I returned from Cuba I was inclined to jump right back into things. The problem was I had moved the day before I left for Cuba. Nothing was in it’s place and it’s place was hard to determine. What I decided to focus on was a bit of nesting so the space would feel … Leap ForwardCreativity is a Process
I am not a very verbal person. I don’t tell my stories with words. Well, more specifically, with spoken words. I don’t find I like to talk. Funny, it’s an interesting observation to write when I working so hard to learn Spanish. While I was in Cuba I was paralleling the experience by reading The … Leap ForwardTime alone in the streets with people
I pulled over the journal I was keeping while in Havana. Just me documenting the trip and observations with a revelation or two thrown in. It’s very stream of consciousness. I will come back in the next few days and add photos. This will be posted in several parts over the next week. Just needed … Leap ForwardHavana Surprises and Breaks Through
Well. Here we are on the eve of a big move to the new studio space and less than 48 hours from Havana Cuba. I am feeling a tad lazy…ok exhausted…from packing so I created this video to talk about what I hope to gain from the next week of adventures.
A few days ago I posted this video to give a little more explanation on my photo process. I am including here with the video repost the contact sheet of the raw photos from that same day. If you have questions or just want to chat about this let me know.
Last night I did a little snip on this process and was asked to cover it a little more in depth. Today I am giving you an inside view and tomorrow I will post the contact sheets of today’s photoshoot for you to view. Hope this video gives you some insight. As always, open to … Leap ForwardStreet Photography and Process
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It’s no small thing to see the self. I live in a world of constant distractions. I live in a world that begs me to examine how other people see ‘me”. But do I see myself, really? Am I studying external shapes and colors or do I see myself? Over the past month I’ve found … Leap ForwardSelf Portrait in a Million Parts
It’s a powerful thing to process your life through art. In some ways I wasn’t really fully aware what I was processing and it has become more clear in this time of reflection. Much of my current art I thought was related to loneliness and desire. I guess I also didn’t realize I was only … Leap ForwardComing Out of the Closet, In My Heart
Moving elements over from patreon.com slowly and decided to create a video library here of the process over 2 weeks of painting the latest Joan of Arc. This is about an hour of video over all, so perhaps more than you wanted? HAHA. Well the good news is you can skim through some of it … Leap ForwardUnderstanding the Process Better
This post is a stream of consciousness so it goes back and forth a bit. It’s a decision making progress externalized. That in mind the writing may be hard to follow so I recored a short video covering the points. Mixture of excitement over doing the work anchored in my usual pessimism it will be … Leap ForwardDebating the Value of Specific Exhibition Opportunities
Great day. Finished the website as I had intended. Added much more to the store. Set up my social media for the next week to run on it’s own. Then I got home and took a short nap. When I woke up a storm was starting to come in and the sky was darker. The … Leap ForwardChromatic Explorer Shopping
I was finishing the last page of my website build today and scheduling my social media posts for the next week. Fun right? The parts of having an art studio we never covered in school. Ran across this piece and immediately gave me flashbacks to that wonderful day. Thought I would share a few elements … Leap ForwardMercado La Laguinilla
More reflecting on what I have accomplished and where I am going.
I sent a message to a friend in California today asking for advice on social media marketing. It’s not a big deal, but it got flashed back to me that I hadn’t been keeping up with what was going on in their life and I wasn’t being very socially graceful. Directness is often a problem … Leap ForwardEating Emotions
It’s been about 5 months since my exhibition closed in Ventura CA and things have changed a lot. I am now in Mexico City DF, Mexico working my studio at every angle I can to keep it going. It’s been a phenomenal experience and of course a challenging one. I love to watch this video, … Leap ForwardReflecting on Progress
Update: The store is now live by clicking on Photo or Paintings in the menu! As I have mentioned before, right now most of the sales component of my artwork is being handled through DABart and online at artsy.net. It’s great exposure and lovely to have representation via a gallery. The problem that arises … Leap ForwardThe Store is LIVE!
I’ve made great progress this week in bringing things back into my studio that I am paying other people for. For instance, the patreon.com site is being moved inside of this site chromaticexplorer.com. I was paying 10% of my earnings to patreon.com to host my site and provide the option of membership subscriptions at different … Leap ForwardThings are Poppin’
Today was a unique experience you’d be hard pressed to find the opportunity to do in CDMX. I was contacted by a developer who works with historical buildings around El Centro in Ciudad de Mexico. They have several buildings which are currently slated to be rehabilitated, but due to the historic nature of the buildings … Leap ForwardTour of Abandoned 19th Century Buildings
Today I grant public access to the video blog post as a window into what my subscribers see. I hope you enjoy it and it is informative about how the studio operates and my process in development. There will be content you can see for free always, but you can subscribe for $5 or more … Leap ForwardKeeping up to date in the studio
Today is the first day I have felt fully human in a month. My stomach turned on me and took the entire system down. I could not eat for weeks. I was struggling with water and soup. I’ve had bad stomach problems for much of the last 8 years or more, so it’s not new … Leap ForwardMending
Ah my friends. I have to blog this one out as writing makes things real and helps me think about things in a new way. I came to Mexico City with some expectations and have realized only a few. It has been great for me to have my time in the studio and learn more … Leap ForwardContemplating a Future
My Throwback Thursday is an opportunity to review my pet portraits before I begin working on a few more for clients. This fella greeted me at the ferry every morning while I was in Bangkok. Each day as I would return to the ferry I’d find him taking a nap. A state I wanted to … Leap ForwardCuando Sueno Contigo – Throwback Thursday
I am returning to some photos I took at the start of the month. Yesterday I was angsting out about slow sales to a close friend. He stated that maybe my work had become too “strong”. It coded but clear to me. We are always in this internal battle with ourselves. It’s an internalized homophobia … Leap ForwardInternalized Homophobia – a daily meditation
I love this idea that we dig into the archives and reveal memories of days gone by, but in this case we apply it to artwork. 🙂 I’ve been in in bed for the past week coping with the pain of gallstones, so I have not been able to post much. Today I am vertical … Leap ForwardThrowback Thursday
Yesterday was not one of my better days. I set out with a list of things I wanted to accomplish and really spent most of my day stressed about what the next move on this piece would be. This rarely happens to me. I am often plagued by doubts, but my answer is generally to … Leap ForwardMovement in the studio
Felize Viernes a todo. I am a little behind today as I woke up to find my site had disappeared from the host. Qué susto! What a scare. My domain registration updated and it reverted back to forwarding to facebook.com. Not sure why and neither was godaddy. Other than waiting on the phone for 45 … Leap ForwardFeliz Viernes – Happy Friday!
I am nothing if not an emotional exhibitionist. What a dramatic title yes? Well that’s what it feels like being separated from my paintings the adorned my studio for the past year in Ventura, CA. I miss my babies. They are in the gallery there living and breathing without me. I would see them every … Leap ForwardI am nothing if not an emotional exhibitionist
Many hours of work to accomplish what before would seem so simple. Life right? First it was getting this site up and running. That goal had been sitting around for a few years and came to fruition about 6 weeks ago. In that time I have garnered over 1000 subscribers to site. How cool is … Leap ForwardProgress
This post is available with images at Become a Patron! Man am I exhausted from the photo shoots this weekend and the subsequent hours of parsing images to see if I had what I needed. Today, Monday, is supposed to be my day off, so I allowed myself to sleep in. I woke up at … Leap ForwardBlue Monday
Prepped as much as possible. I will be adding some notes to this page and in this same location. Perhaps some as I go through the shoot, but more likely reflections afterwords. If you are subscribing to my patreon.com/chromaticexplorer for $5 or more you get access to the proofs. Become a Patron! and view the contact … Leap ForwardJust moments before
Working…working…working. I went to buy the ladder I need for the photoshoots. Borrowing is cheaper – but then I have to transport and schedule around when the ladder is available. Now I have one so on the next mural painting I won’t again be looking for a ladder to borrow. As you can see I … Leap ForwardMore and more comes through
Wait, you didn’t just come here to see the black bar removed from the photo did you? Perve. But hey, no judgement. 🙂 I’m working through my ideas of how the model will need to move and what I will need from them in advance. It helps me to model it here first and think … Leap ForwardPrepping
It’s been an interesting few days. My mojo drained. I am wandering the streets. Seeking inspiration. It’s not your fault Oaxaca. I showed up burned out. Complicated by a terrible airbnb experience. Dirty. Vacant. Just not what I was expecting. A cloak of loneliness fell over me. I travel by myself all the time, but … Leap ForwardCiudad de Oaxaca
Much of the time the only way I can stay honest to my practice is to set goals (metas) for myself. Generally my goals are lofty overall and then drilled down to tasks like complete two paintings in a week to prepare for meeting a curator. I realized that the other gallery was going to … Leap ForwardThe Frenzy
What follows are the noted stream of thoughts and dialogue noted while working on this painting. Calurosa – Las nubes desaparecieron y el tiempo se puso caluroso. The clouds dispersed and the weather turned warm. And so did my emotions. I could not escape the way I was feeling and it filled the surface. A powerful wave. … Leap ForwardCalurosa
Admittedly I get sick more frequently when I live in Mexico City DF. It’s part of being here and being such a sensitive soul. JAJA. Yes I said sensitive soul. It’s all connected. The pollution, the crowded spaces, the endless walking and exploration. I stay up later working and I am generally in motion more … Leap ForwardSurviving
I sometimes can’t work on a piece. I stop in a moment and walk away. There is a moment of terror. Will I go too far and not be able to come back. There is also a moment of recognition. The painting. The muse. The energy. The whatever you want to call it has asked … Leap ForwardBlindness
Don’t assume my silence isn’t because I am not working. On the contrary, I am in full speed mode. Not all activity is directly related to creating the actual work. Sometimes it’s all about business…which reminds me of 10 things I need to do this week still. I sent off 10 new images to get … Leap ForwardRadio Silence
You know what you know until you know more than you know you know less than you knew before. That’s just my way of confusi…I mean explaining to you that I learned a lot in the process. First I had to be introduced to the people who were doing the work. There were language barriers … Leap ForwardWhat I learned from painting this mural